This morning when I was in the gym suddenly I felt discouraged.
I felt that I have done what I could do to build and expand the family builder community but nobody seemed really care about it. I didn't need the credit or whatever appreciation but what I needed is everyone in the community takes part to make it work.
I felt that I have been working all alone and everyone loves to be served but doesn't want to serve for many reasons.
I started to doubt myself if what I did was really God's will or it's just plainly my illusion.
What made me feeling that was when I started this #7dayschallenge to make marriage great again by doing simple acts of love, I kinda had the expectation that everyone was excited about it and loved to spread and share it to others but the responses and reaction I had were the opposite. Everyone was quiet, there's no excitement, perhaps only one or two individuals.
I felt that why is it so difficult to make the world better place.
I almost wanted to give up, I almost considering to join the CEP group where everyone was so supportive to each other in the community and kinda spreading the positive energy to everyone.
But deep down inside, I felt that God's calling was to help those who were wounded, broken, hopeless and the family builder community needs me.
Then the evil voice started to discourage me
- what's the point of doing all this, if everyone is not supporting you
- you should stop doing this and mind your own family
- whatever you do, it will be useless because you can't change the person's heart
- you better join other group that make your efforts are more appreciated
- you are alone anyway, even your husband is not really supporting you
While in the gym, I keep asking God to give me a little hope, if there's one person in the group that care and supportive, it's and affirmation that God wants me to continue.
During my break between exercise, I checked my phone and saw a notification that one of our FB member shared the 7 day challenge in her social media.
In that instant, I only can smile and grateful to God that this is the instant answer of my doubt to affirm that this is the place I should continue to stay.
When I finished my gym session, I walked back home and I started my contemplation asking God why what I did was like useless. Everyone didn't really care about it.
God answered by reminding me of the pot of plant that I had at home.
He said when my son brought the pot of seeds from the school, he's very excited only a day then he forgot about that.
I had no choice to take care of this plant.
I had a little knowledge about what this plant was and how to take care of the plant and I didn't really bother to look for the information since this plant was not my interest in the first place.
But I always did the minimum requirements which were watering this plant and put it outside so that it got the sun ray to help it grow.
There were times that I forgot to water them or when I were overseas and the plant started to dry and withered but when I realised it, quickly I watered this plant and the next day it started alive again.
I seldom put attention to this plant but as days pass it grows taller and taller. Even there's new sprout in the soil.
Then God was telling me, this plant only needs one soul to take care of it. It doesn't need the whole family to make it stay alive, but only one person to commit to take care of this plant even without much knowledge. If nobody care, it will be dying soon.
You can choose to take care this plant or other plants in Flower Dome. But your effort to water the plants in Flower Dome won't have any big impact because there are many people who are already appointed to take care those.
It's similar to the community that you have been involved. You can choose to go to other marriage and family community who are already stabilised and you seemed to find the joy and support there but I sent you to the wounded ones, those who need supports and care. And they need at least one person to care about it.
Like a plant, you may not be able to see the changes in a short period of time but overtime you will see that it will grow, it's alive and new sprout is coming too.
Even though you feel that your efforts are wasted and couldn't see the result, you gonna need to trust Me that whatever you do for the wounded persons, the hurt and outcast out of love for Me, it will have a great impact in the time that you can't imagine.
Having this encouragement words from God is giving me an empowerment not to give up.
And I became eager to do fasting as my sacrifice for those who have hurt, the wounded heart, the hopeless marriage.
I really thank God for this encouragement words and analogy.
I felt that I have done what I could do to build and expand the family builder community but nobody seemed really care about it. I didn't need the credit or whatever appreciation but what I needed is everyone in the community takes part to make it work.
I felt that I have been working all alone and everyone loves to be served but doesn't want to serve for many reasons.
I started to doubt myself if what I did was really God's will or it's just plainly my illusion.
What made me feeling that was when I started this #7dayschallenge to make marriage great again by doing simple acts of love, I kinda had the expectation that everyone was excited about it and loved to spread and share it to others but the responses and reaction I had were the opposite. Everyone was quiet, there's no excitement, perhaps only one or two individuals.
I felt that why is it so difficult to make the world better place.
I almost wanted to give up, I almost considering to join the CEP group where everyone was so supportive to each other in the community and kinda spreading the positive energy to everyone.
But deep down inside, I felt that God's calling was to help those who were wounded, broken, hopeless and the family builder community needs me.
Then the evil voice started to discourage me
- what's the point of doing all this, if everyone is not supporting you
- you should stop doing this and mind your own family
- whatever you do, it will be useless because you can't change the person's heart
- you better join other group that make your efforts are more appreciated
- you are alone anyway, even your husband is not really supporting you
While in the gym, I keep asking God to give me a little hope, if there's one person in the group that care and supportive, it's and affirmation that God wants me to continue.
During my break between exercise, I checked my phone and saw a notification that one of our FB member shared the 7 day challenge in her social media.
In that instant, I only can smile and grateful to God that this is the instant answer of my doubt to affirm that this is the place I should continue to stay.
When I finished my gym session, I walked back home and I started my contemplation asking God why what I did was like useless. Everyone didn't really care about it.
He said when my son brought the pot of seeds from the school, he's very excited only a day then he forgot about that.
I had no choice to take care of this plant.
I had a little knowledge about what this plant was and how to take care of the plant and I didn't really bother to look for the information since this plant was not my interest in the first place.
But I always did the minimum requirements which were watering this plant and put it outside so that it got the sun ray to help it grow.
There were times that I forgot to water them or when I were overseas and the plant started to dry and withered but when I realised it, quickly I watered this plant and the next day it started alive again.
I seldom put attention to this plant but as days pass it grows taller and taller. Even there's new sprout in the soil.
Then God was telling me, this plant only needs one soul to take care of it. It doesn't need the whole family to make it stay alive, but only one person to commit to take care of this plant even without much knowledge. If nobody care, it will be dying soon.
You can choose to take care this plant or other plants in Flower Dome. But your effort to water the plants in Flower Dome won't have any big impact because there are many people who are already appointed to take care those.
It's similar to the community that you have been involved. You can choose to go to other marriage and family community who are already stabilised and you seemed to find the joy and support there but I sent you to the wounded ones, those who need supports and care. And they need at least one person to care about it.
Like a plant, you may not be able to see the changes in a short period of time but overtime you will see that it will grow, it's alive and new sprout is coming too.
Even though you feel that your efforts are wasted and couldn't see the result, you gonna need to trust Me that whatever you do for the wounded persons, the hurt and outcast out of love for Me, it will have a great impact in the time that you can't imagine.
Having this encouragement words from God is giving me an empowerment not to give up.
And I became eager to do fasting as my sacrifice for those who have hurt, the wounded heart, the hopeless marriage.
I really thank God for this encouragement words and analogy.
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