Mark 7 : 31 - 37
31 Jesus then left the neighborhood of Tyre and went on through Sidon to Lake Galilee, going by way of the territory of the Ten Towns.
32 Some people brought him a man who was deaf and could hardly speak and they begged Jesus to place his hands on him
33 So Jesus took him off alone, away from the crowd, put his fingers in the man's ears, spat, and touched the man's tongue.
34 Then Jesus looked up to heaven, gave a deep groan, and said the man " EPHPHATHA" which means OPEN UP !
35 At once the man was able to hear his speech impediment was removed and he began to talk without any trouble.
36 Then Jesus ordered the people not to speak of it to anyone ; but the more he ordered them not to, the more they hold it.
37 And all who heard were completely amazed. "How well he does everything !" they exclaimed. " He even causes the deaf to hear and the dumb to speak!"
This is the Gospel of Last Sunday and Fr Vinay was the celebrant of the mass.
As I still have a battle inside my heart about NFP and New Life, the reading was just came in the right time to remind me who should I choose to be a deaf person.
The message of the homily was we are all deaf persons and we could choose to be deaf too.
He gave an analogy like this
Before he moved to Singapore, he was the parish priest in the church that's located next to school.
During school days, there were always noises that made him uncomfortable at first but after sometimes he got used to it and became "deaf" for the noises. Even during school holidays, he found something missing when he didn't hear usual noises.
Like him, we could be a deaf person to the voice of God or to the noises of the world.
We could choose not to listen to the voice of God and listen to the noises of the world
We could choose not to listen to the noises of the world and listen to the voice of God
Both we may find it uncomfortable at first but after awhile we will get used to it.
If we get used to listen to the noises of the world, we will get lost even further because the noises of the world are to confuse us, and when we tried to hear the voice of God, we will miss something and it's easily for us to return to listen the noises of the world, unless it's only by God's Grace that opens our heart.
On the other hand, if we get used to listen to the voice of God, our life will be in the right direction despite the challenges, we always focus to who calls us. And when we heard the noises of the world, we will feel uncomfortable and get lost easily and our heart will have tendency to look for the voice again.
As for my case, I know for this battle, I still couldn't decide who I should be deaf to.
In one side, I know that I need to let go my logic and all excuses as noises and to listen to the Voice of God and trust Him but on the other side, my fears and trauma were so strong that I shut the Voice of God.
I pray that God gave me a wisdom, I know He's a gentle God who never forces His way to His creations.
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