Gratitude
Even though my heart was not in full gratitude because my anger and self - center overcome myself, I will try to list down what should I be thankful for today
I thank God for this rainy cool weather, even though the rainstorm and thunders are amazingly scary but we manage to do our planned activity this half day.
I thank God for being able to have good lunch with the kids - sushi
I thank God for the complete family that I still have up to this moment
I thank God that I have this tumbling blocks in my own weakness, it makes me humble before God and depend solely on God's grace to heal and change me
I thank God that I have great time with the kids end of the half day and reconcile with them
Saint Story : St Francis Xavier
What I learnt from his story is his perseverance spirit to convert people to Christianity. There were many challenges, from legal, language barrier, cultures didn't stop him. He's adaptable and changed the strategy so that he could be accepted in the strange country.
True Love and Joy found
I felt loved when my husband never fail to drop me message this morning to see how I am and the kids are
Honestly, because of self center attitude that I care more about myself than the children, I missed the joy feeling when watching my first son did nerf gun combat.
But by Grace of God who have touched me, I was overwhelmed with joy and patience. When the kids woke up from his naps, I have been patiently with them, showering them
And in the car, I have been able to have some jokes and found so much joy having laughter with them
I felt loved when my husband shared with me the problem that arise in his work today and we could share about what happen today openly to each other
I felt joy and loved when the kids made this artwork during CEP program and proudly show it to me and their dad
Short comings
I am still not be able to see the children as blessings, instead I still look at them as burdens
I cannot have fun with them sincerely, slowing my pace and looking at their perspective of life
I care too much about myself, my plan, what I need to do next
Oh Lord, this is what I need to work out. I can't with my own strength but let Your Amazing Grace comes upon me, change my heart, my paradigm about the children so I can enjoy having fun with them, lower down my expectations.
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