Trust his heart

The past four days have been incredibly hectic from the moment I woke up each morning.

From sending the kids off early, exercising, picking up winter clothes and boots, viewing storage units, serving in PD KKIHS, to teaching the kids at night—it felt like a never-ending cycle. I was so busy that I didn’t have proper meals, often grabbing whatever I could while on the road.

On Thursday afternoon, before serving in PD KKIHS, I found myself with 30 minutes to spare. I decided to enter Our Lady of Lourdes Church. The quiet and serene atmosphere gave me a moment to pause.

There, I broke down and poured out my feelings to God. I felt alone and overwhelmed.

I told Him that, if I had a choice, I’d rather work for someone else—just fulfilling my responsibilities, earning a paycheck, and not worrying so much about the uncertainties of entrepreneurship. I longed for the freedom to travel without constant concern.

As I gazed at the hanging cross, God’s love enveloped me. It was as if my Guardian Angels spoke to me:

**“Look at Him. He was alone when He carried the cross. He healed the sick, fed the crowds, and performed miracles that amazed many. Yet, in His most critical moment, He was forsaken by His disciples. No one cheered for Him; instead, He was mocked and treated worse than an animal.

Though He was God, He also experienced human suffering. In Gethsemane, He prayed fervently, asking if the cup could pass from Him. But in the end, He chose to do the Father’s will.

Many heroes of faith, like David and Joseph, faced similar struggles. But one thing is certain—these struggles were worth it. Victory always followed their trials.”**

I felt consoled and calm after that moment, ready to continue my day and serve at PD KKIHS.

That evening, Pak Alfons, the speaker, shared his own testimony. He spoke about losing his job, and, a year later, his wife. Initially, he struggled to accept these losses and doubted God’s goodness. But he found solace in a song that also deeply blessed me:

TRUST HIS HEART

(Excerpt of lyrics)

The chorus touched me the most:
“God is too wise to be mistaken,
God is too good to be unkind.
So when you don’t understand,
When you don’t see His plan,
When you can’t trace His hand,
Trust His Heart.”

I felt as though my Guardian Angel was speaking directly to me. Even though I don’t fully understand what I’m going through, I know I must trust His heart.

A second sign came when a post appeared in my Facebook feed:

“We have two choices: Do HARD things for an easy life, or do EASY things for a hard life. When we willingly challenge ourselves, the ROI in other areas of our life is incredible.”

This message struck a chord. As I reflected on it, I realized God is working in every area of my life:

• Spiritual Growth: Trusting God with my future, career, finances, and work, even when I feel completely out of control.
• Personal Growth: Embarking on new adventures and building a business has been challenging but rewarding. It pushes me to solve problems, think creatively, and tackle everything from storage and inventory to finance, marketing, and logistics. These are lessons I wouldn’t experience working for someone else.
• Character Development: This journey is refining my character—teaching me accountability, stewardship, and resilience. Although I have some financial resources to invest, I’ve challenged myself to fund this business independently, fostering discipline and responsibility.

In conclusion, I believe I am chosen for this path. While it feels like swimming in an open ocean, I have peace and joy in my heart, affirming that this is the way forward.