Weaknesses

This week's reflections are about Jesus as High Priest above all priests who have been called and chosen by God.
Worldly priests act as a bridge between God and human thus they must live their life reflecting on God's love.
However, as much as they wants to do it, the priests are still human with weaknesses. This weaknesses are to remind them to be more compassionate to others, deeper their faith and depends on God's grace as well as to prevent them to be self-righteous.

As I reflected on this, eventhough my call is not to be in religious vocation but God has called me to live my life as pure as He is.
God has loved me so much despite my weaknesses and failures and nothing else is matter.

I realize that how much I want to be holy, I'm still human with some weaknesses.
I feel grateful with these weaknesses so that I remind myself to be humble, not judgemental with others or being self - righteous.
Weaknesses are not meant to push me down, but it's to make God's Grace fills up and takes over me.

These are my top 3 weaknesses.

1. Having faith in God's plan for children
Deep inside my heart, I still can't let God control over my body especially the reproduction system.
I'm still afraid to open for new life. I have thousands of excuses to say NO if God asks me whether I'm open for new life.
As much as I have joined the NFP, following the calendar, praying, it's still hard to detach from these weaknesses.
I'm bonded by my own fear.

2. Pleasing in the eyes
As woman, my weaknesses is whatever that pleasing in my eyes. In my mind, I know that I may not need the things but because it's pleasing in my eyes, I decide to buy and sometimes I regret it.

3. Running against time
Time is a thing same like money. We don't own that but I feel that I own the time.
Everyday I am like chased against time.
My days are so hectic and busy and I try to squeeze here and there and in the end tiring out myself.
The result, I become short temper, impatience with my kids.