These past few days, I have been like this wandering sheep. I loved to browse influencers in the instagram and had urge to buy things that I may not necessarily need.
And recently, I saw this bag organizer insert, it's pleasing to my eyes but when I thought deeper, did I really need it ? not really.
However, it kept me thinking about it all the time (toxic)
This morning when I prayed, I told God honestly that I have been dragged back to my old life, looking for fame, self righteous, spending money unnecessary.
I asked God's grace to help me able to have self control and it's so coincidence with today's gospel reading
I felt that there's this evil spirit who made use of my weakness and always able to find out the way to tempt me.
Then during my contemplation with God, He gave me this vision
" There are many sheeps following the shepherd, they pass the road with greeneries on each other side.Some sheeps focus their way and always look up to the shepherd, some are wandering around, some are looking around but once in a while they make sure that they are still able to see the shepherd.I imagine that I'm the last sheep.I love to look around but once a while I still make sure that I still can see the shepherd.In some distances, I saw some beautiful flowers that are pleasing to my eyes and my focus is slowly shifted to these flowers.
I start to lose the shepherd and being dragged to get closer to this beautiful flowers. When finally I found it, I feel happy during that moment, but after that I'm lost.The rest of the view is just simply withered garden."
But God never lose me, He knows exactly where I am and with His love and mercy, He found me and carried me back to His arm.
It's very beautiful vision right, I felt being loved and He's my truly shepherd.
After those contemplation, I asked God's grace to empower me so that I could have self-control and humility and let this story always reminds me whenever I start to wander
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